Two Years Genderversary
Hi guys
1st April 2014 was where my life changed forever,
it was the day I accepted a new journey and start walking down the gender path.
It doesn’t feel like two years but hell I've done so much in this time.
This is where I'm going to start. It was a few years ago and probably before I knew about my gender issue, but I knew I wasn't happy, I was moody, not a great person to be around I was over weight, even though my tits was so on point they still was showing I had no respect for my own body, the only good thing about the picture was it taken by one of a few people that has stood by me and I still see today. The huge depressing thing about it was as male I had hair then and now it's just... well I don't want to go there. It wasn't the fact that I ate at McDonald most of the time... it really didn't help but I was just not in a great place I ate crap all the time and daily Kcal of 4000-5000 per day and huge portions of food.
It was when she pointed me on YouTube to an awesome person called Brin, she had her own YouTube channel and has videos which she has uploaded so you can watch. I learned loads but then learned that she has a website called bigender.net where I soon met loads of people like me and started to learn more about me and well the rest is history but if it wasn't for Ria I would of be still in the same shitty ass dark place in my head and god knows what now.
I would like to post one of Brins videos if you would like to watch. There are also many people in the Trans* community that haven't heard of the term Bi-Gender also.
November was when everything changed, I looked in the mirror and I saw me diferently and didn't like what I saw so I soon splashed out on an expensive wig and started to buy better quality items from makeup to clothes and started to learn more, So I decided to change and started looking at fashion more and to be the girl I saw myself as in the mirror and I soon started to feel happy and more comforting to who I am.
Christmas Eve where I was invited (as Male) to go have a few drinks with the people I used to work with, but it came with a twist... I went as female, it was the first time I showed myself as female to loads of people I knew all at once and also a pub that was just around the corner from me... I was plastered before I went to the pub and still had a few more whilst I was in there.
2015
Nothing really happened after Christmas eve but I started to exercise more and soon I started to lose weight, but also started to get more confident and soon was wearing dresses, boots which was getting noticed by others.
In May dresses started to become more and more and even now its rare I wear jeans or pants anymore.
12th July 2015 this would be the last time till November where I would present female, I have no idea why? In that 4 months I became very ill lost my job less than 2 hours after I handed a sick note in, Within that time I still wasn't well but got a new job at working with awesome people.
In November the feelings came back but worse, I was out to colleagues and started to present female again.
A few days later I went back to Blackpool more confident, a better person the difference I can't deny is massive.
In December it was the works Christmas outing and I ended up going as female it was awesome and my first time I've presented as female to work colleagues.
2016
In January it didn't stop there and I went to work to do an extra shift but out of business hours and I was allowed to come as I felt and that was female it was also the first time that I was out during the day where people could see me. At that time I was struggling with who I was, I was starting to feel depressed all the time, I started to cry a couple of times it really wasn't great and got to a point where I was presenting female all the time outside of work, days off and as soon as I got home.
The first picture on this post where I was fat, a depressive asshole with hair was taken by this awesome lady and defo my bestie. It was also where the first time I showed off my new wig and colour which has taken a while to get used to. Seeing Vicky was a over a year in the making where she was meant to come to the pub on Christmas Eve but unfortunately couldn't make it. This was the first time I was out as female in my own town and ordered my first Starbucks.
February again didn't slow down, from going to the Trafford Center Cinemas as female, I also went for my first make over with Vicky as nervous as I was when I left my house with light foundation and removed it before the make over. I was very tense. Almost forgot to mention that I also have decided to transition to female and that I am now transgender.
Shopping as female with Vicky, the day was awesome but the shopping was awful I came back with new tights and a couple of other things. On the other hand I finally got my Starbucks name with my name on and Vick's with some name.
All I can say is thank you my friends for the support, thank you to my friends that are close to me. My Dad said has said to me "In life you're lucky to have someone you can call your best friend." I feel I'm extremely lucky to have more... Well I'm lucky to have three people close to me that I can call best friends, the only issue is that the one who has known me longest will get a shock when he sees me as female for the first time.
Thanks for reading.
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