Two genders Two Tails

What was supposed to be a nice relaxing bloggerthon turned on it's head with the attacks two weeks ago in London and is where I felt in mark of respect was to delay these posts as I didn't feel I could celebrate why there was a tragedy that happened. I felt only like yesterday that I was on that same bridge, and the same side walking across. 

Anyway all I can say is welcome to part 4 of the London and Scotland Tour. 

Last time I spoke about my first day where I met a person called Victoria who I’ve been wanting to meet for some time, but this part is about the reason for my trip. Because this day is Sunday 29^th January as I came to called it “V-Day.” So this day is about watching my favourite band called Versailles, Finally the day has come. A day me and many others have been waiting for. 2^nd October 2011 was the last time Versailles came to the UK. where I and a couple of friends also got to meet them! they saw my tattoo! It was the best day of my life and a day I will never forget.

Before all that thought I had to make it through the day. I woke up early that morning as I wanted to nip into Camden to that meant catching the tube and with it being a Sunday shops in London are weird as they all don’t open at 10:30am like where I live in the North West of England. Some was open before, others between 11am – 12am. The reason I went was to visit the MAC shop which I struggled to find and I think I even walked past it. I thought Camden was weird at night, it seemed worse during the day I mean it in a good weird way.

I took more notice of the shops as they were decorated and had larger models of the items that they were selling, so I saw large models above the shop of Converse shoes, New Rock Boots to name a few. Yes, Camden was very interesting but I think the next time I’m in London I will take my time more.

I went into this little indoor market where they had life size models of horses and people, the floor looked and felt old where I was going to fall through them. The best shop for me was the rave shop called Cyber Dog. I’ve only been in a small rave shop in Manchester which is like a market stall compared to this one. It had loads of fluorescent clothing and décor. It really was a wacky and fun place to be.

Anyway I managed to come across the MAC Shop only for it to open at midday so with over one hour to kill I set off for another MAC shop which I found at St Pancras railway station and bought a concealer and the Diva lipstick which I wore specially for the Versailles gig. I’m not into red lipstick much as I feel it makes you teeth orange or the white. Luckily for me it was white. I also realised that I forgot my set spray so I knew straight away that I needed a new one but I didn’t want another high end one as I still have a full Bottle of Estée Lauder to use… which I forgot.

So I decided to walk another 1.6 miles to a super drug to get the Makeup Revolution set spray, which after I bought that to walk another 1.3 miles to my hotel. It was pretty much nonstop as I decided to walk 1.2 miles to where the venue would be later on. The venue is on a small shopping complex which when I got there something mentally hit me and I mean hard, worse than when I got assaulted in 2009. I had forgot my Versailles tickets. As I was getting ready the day before I remember my dad rushed me and I didn’t do my mental check of what I had and it slipped my mind.

Within that moment I felt like my heart stopped I didn’t panic as I thought the box office would have been open, so I went upstairs and to find it wasn’t open. My felt like my heart stopped for a split second I didn’t panic as I thought of one last thing and that was to check online where I bought the tickets to see if they had another option as I would have to spend another £40, but the issue was how would I get the tickets?

Luckily they had an “eticket” option where you would download the app and the barcode would be sent the phone so all wasn’t too bad… Apart from spending another £40 on tickets. Then again people will spend that to see Gaga/Rihanna etc. The Price of the tickets have always bothered me this time around as they were almost if not double what they were last time, and they don’t bring support with them either, but hey I suppose if you love a band or person with music you will go and watch them.

I got there to find a nice little que and decided to talk to people that was there to find out the people at the front was there from 6:30am. That is crazy for a gig that wouldn’t be sold out. After a little something to eat at my local McDonald’s Restaurant it was time to go home have a little nap and get ready for the show.

Even though I bought makeup for the gig I was still unsure about going as female as I was nervous really as I would be doing this completely alone, with no one at my side at all which was alarming to me, but I knew it was something I had to do. When I went to watch Bullet For My Valentine I was filled with regret that I didn’t go as female even though I didn’t plan to and it hurt me so much and I felt like I betray myself and also others, which this time I didn’t want to happen, so I decided stuff how I felt and go as female.

The only thing one was football which was the FA Cup between Manchester United Vs Wigan Athletic so it was some background noise to listen to. The makeup I wore for this was;

Eyeshadow:  Urban Decay Naked 2 Pallet (which I have now got rid of)

Foundation: Estee Lauder Double Wear

Hiding stubble Concealer 1: MAC Studio Finish NW30

Hiding stubble Concealer 2: MAC Pro Longwear NC15

Contouring Pallet: Sculpting & Highlighting Kit

Highlighting: MUA Iridescent Gold

Brow kit: Sleek Brow kit

Lipstick: MAC Rebel

Set Spray: Makeup Revolution

Apart from the Naked pallet I decided to play it safe as I was out on my own I didn’t see the point in going over the top for my first gig as female and wanted to play it as casual as possible. It took me about an hour to get ready, as I didn’t rush as it was raining but I didn’t think it was as bad as it was till I got out. On the Saturday night the boots I wore really did hurt my feet again they’re a size smaller and not fully broken into, which I thought being on my feet for around 4-5 hours with potential walking of 2.2 miles didn’t fill me with confidence. So I decided to go with my Timberland ankle boots with thick tights. As we know I’ve always been one for boots and go pretty much everywhere in them as female but I know that I need to start wearing different types of footwear… Plus these where the only other type of footwear I had that was suitable to wear as my others was suede.

Doing my last check, I left the hotel room to walk outside and the rain was bad. Across from my hotel there was a cash machine and I went to get some cash out and walked back and I was pretty wet. I had no choice but download the Uber app for a cab, I didn’t want to do it but I know it would do me good to do more things as female independently and being in a place way further out than where I live is a great way to start and build more confidently as it will be next to impossible that I will see them again, plus it was only for a short ride. Which I spent pretty much in silence.

After waiting and with a little confusion with the V.I.P que and waiting just over an hour, we were going in and I was searched, I was treated the same as everyone else and when I bought merchandise I was referred to as female I don’t think it could have gone any smoother… apart from forgetting my tickets. We were unable to take pictures during the event which was set by the tour promoters and this was the same as in 2011 when I last went, I can’t really talk about the gig much as I was in a trance, I was going crazy and was swaying and had my arms in the air, people noticed my Versailles Tattoo which I was being asked about by a few people.

At the end of the night I decided to walk home, my feet by this point wasn’t bad but I would say slightly uncomfortable, but on the plus side it was downhill. The weather was raining but not as bad as before… When I say downhill it was moderate till I got to the last part where my hotel was, it was pretty steep and my calf wasn’t half put to the test going down but I made it.

I finally went out on my own as female did more than I set myself to do and I have never been prouder of myself in less than 48 hours but most of all I kept my promise to myself and that was to go as myself to a gig and what made it even more special was that it was my favourite band.

This wasn’t the end of the night and I will cover that on the next part.

Thanks for reading.

Sarah

xxx