Two genders Two Tails

This ep is all about Foundation so I will go through where I started to where I am now.
I hope you enjoy.

Okay, the foundation was the first thing I started with, and I think it’s where most girls start when it comes to makeup. I know when I was in high school I noticed loads of girls started to wear it. I was like what the hell is that what are they wearing? I noticed because it wasn’t blended at all it would generally go to the side of the head and just under the chin. Then came mascara and eyeliner but that is for another ep. Unfortunately, this happened to me when I started… But I didn’t start with your standard foundation.

The first time I came into contact with the foundation was when I was into my heavy metal, I dressed in baggy jeans, New Rock Boots, band t-shirt (that hasn’t changed for when I present male) and a big chain hanging on my jeans, so I started out wearing porcelain foundation. It wasn’t really branded at all it was just cheap stuff, but it was extremely thick and didn’t cover my face so it was spending time looking for ways to improve which was using Sudocream as what I didn’t know was a primer to help the white foundation to go on and this happens with most white foundations apparently… Never tried any since I came away from it.

I kind of think thank god, my photography skills were crap then as with my makeup skills, I had an extremely hairy chest which you can kind of see. When this pic was taken I already acquired eye shadow, lip gloss, and eyeliner which was from a gift set off eBay for less than a £10. The wig was a really cheap fancy dress one which you could do nothing with, but there you could tell that I had no idea of blending at all haha.

Within a couple of weeks, I had got concealer which I used once as it was really thick and hard to use for such a novice like myself. I got an eyeshadow pallet but I also got lipsticks which were in the bag and behind them was 5 foundation shades. These were a cheap buy and got on eBay which didn’t last long as it was too oily for my skin and to me looked fatty oily if that makes sense. For the first use which I think I’ve said this more than one occasion was I decided to use the darkest shade first, not because I thought I would be right, but because I could and I wanted to see what it would look like… but if people know me well enough is that I don’t take much stuff seriously and decided to have a laugh and take the mick out of someone I knew because she wore her foundation darker than her skin. To this day though I’ve never said who it was and never will unless you’re one of my closest friends that knew me before 2014. 

This was probably the first picture I showed people when I came out, it was probably one of the first pics on my Facebook profile when I created it! Looking back yes it was for a laugh but I think it portrays more people that start off using foundation, that includes not blending and I wonder how many people would admit to looking like this when they started out?

In July was where I started to change. I changed my foundation to another unnamed one and now I’ve started to see being sold at my post office, I got mine from off eBay where I can’t seem to find it now. I started to change in the way I dressed I got jeans in, I got more female clothes in and started really getting into fashion. Probably not the best outfit to wear in the middle of summer but at this point, I never went out.

  

This was September 2014, nothing had really changed but this was a very important night for me. This was the first time I went out as female to Blackpool. Foundation wise nothing changed even makeup. What did change was when I got home and looked at the pictures. I knew things had to change, such as how I looked and fast.

November and December were where everything changed. In November I got better at using the foundation I had, I got new eyeshadow from No.7 (Boots) and Max Factor Liquid Eye Liner. Along with Calvin Klein Blusher. For the first time, I met up with people I used to work with when I was at McDonald's as female. It went down very good and was at my local pub.

During 2015 I spent most time learning techniques and got in brushes, I spent loads of it messing around with makeup and seeing if I could go back to Blackpool looking better. 

Before I went to meet people I used to work with at McDonald's for the first time

I tried Avon but it didn’t work, it seemed greasy for me and never stayed on my face. Fast track to the end of 2015 I knew I had to do something. I was in a new job and was planning something big… Like really big! Where I currently work my colleagues are very supportive and they wanted to see me as female (I got pestered) which I felt very pressured by them but to be honest I pressured myself more as it was an opportunity that I didn’t want to regret and one thing I’m not great at is regretting. So, I went to Boots in the Trafford Centre and spent about £70 on makeup, for this I went to Max Factor. This was where I bought Pan Stick, Primer and it was the 3-in-1 Infinity foundation. At the time it worked great, which I soon used for the best part of 2016.   

Towards the back end of 2016, I started messing around with the higher end makeup brands such as  MAC and Dior which was very pricey only to not get the results I wanted. Unfortunately, I felt that I was still going back to Max Factor. In August I wasn’t getting much practice time as my dad took early retirement with Tescos laying off the night shift at his store, which I’m never comfortable getting ready when he’s around.

Here are some looks from 2016;

My look for when I went for a tattoo

London 2017

Fitness has become my number one focus this year and will hopefully continue next year but it is also when I plan to go presenting as female full time at some point. My makeup collection has grown since but that will be for another post where I will talk about everything. However, I have an announcement in the next couple of weeks might be over a couple of posts I don’t know yet, but it is massive and this is a massive positive which possibly will help me with my transition.

That's it for this ep, thank you for reading and I will have more updates and I can’t wait for what my future holds.

See you all soon

Thanks

Sarah

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