The Count Down To Sparkle
Hey all,
I've been given the thumbs up and will be available to attend this
year’s Sparkle in Manchester. For those that haven't heard of sparkle whether you’re
in the Trans* community or not (seriously many Trans* people haven't heard of
it) I see it as like a Pride event but for transgender people (like pride many
people go that aren’t Trans or in the LGBT) Someone might have to correct me on
this but overall it’s a celebration of the Trans* community coming together etc.
I will be looking forward to meeting many people and gaining new friends.
Sparkle this year was a last minute decision for me and part of it
was due to me not booking it off in advance due to not knowing people well
enough but also thinking someone in my department was already off which that wasn’t
the case. I will be staying over in Manchester on the Saturday night, which is
going to be cool.
Not only will this be my first Sparkle it will be where I will
break the barrier by;
·
Getting
ready with others from male to female
·
Having
a night out as female
·
Probably
getting drunk as female (even though I said I won’t be)
·
Meeting
loads of people like myself but further on in their journey
·
Listening
to what people have been through
·
Meeting
inspiring and interesting people
·
Hitting
Canal Street for the first time
For this weekend I’m excited loads but I’m also nervous, the issue
is one that goes back many years ago, I used to be one where if the LBGT (or
gay guys) left me alone I would leave them alone, I was this childish asshole
that would joke about anything and yes they would be extremely offensive. When
I realised that I was (at first) Bi-Gender I knew I had to change, fast forward
two years three months and;
·
My attitude
is better
·
I’m
in a better place mentally… Ish.
·
My tolerance
for others is better
·
Supportive
of others
·
Feel better…
when I present as my trueself
·
Better
confidence till I try wearing clothes Yes I think I look fat.
These are to name a few of these qualities that I have gained. But
overall I still have this nervous thing I don’t know what to expect in Canal
street? I don’t know how to act? Will I fit in? Most of my life I’ve been this
heavy metal chav which had a sheltered life. For a good few years it was work,
food, games, shit, sleep and repeat. No room for a relationships and no room
for gay people (not meaning that in a hatred way) That was the person I was
very secluded from people… Yes, I was complete w*nker and still are in some
ways.
Sparkle is something I hope will be life changing for me as I want
to banish these last of my impure thoughts and meet some people that will
inspire me to keep going, I hope that I can be inspired so I can make a
difference. For me I think Sparkle is the last big piece of this puzzle that
needs to be solved. For that I will leave for a later post.
This week is going to be extremely massive not just for my first
sparkle but also This blog. I’m aiming by Friday that my first ‘Sarah Meets’
will be posted on here which will have Jessica Pow as my first guest. So I can’t
wait and great timing before sparkle. Monday 4th July I will be
getting my back waxed for the first time so yeah I’m bricking it already as
less than 11 hours from now I will possibly be put through some pain and
yelling Oklahoma (saw it in Jackass) which won’t do anything, while I have the
hairs removed from my back… Pain is beauty… Apparently.
"I could always be male but I wouldn't be living my life, I would be living someone else's."
Left: me as male:Saturday 2nd July.
Right: me as I should be 6th July
Thanks for reading
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