Hey all,

I hope everyone is doing great. First of all I would like to apologise for the lack of content on my blog at he moment. I've been busy with work and I'm just exhausted mentally and physically. After my last employer screwed me over extremely bad where I was ill handed in a doctors notice to where I would receive my end of contract within less than two hours where I had to look for work when I was not in fit state to even walk never mind look for a job. I was being sick for over a month and two weeks when I got my job. I've worked loads of hours and to top it off as of the 16th feb 2016 I would of worked 5 months straight without a break and battling with me not being well and a heavy Christmas schedule of these last few month I also been battling extremely bad with Gender Dysphoria, which has made it extremely hard for me to write posts.

These last 3 months I've done so much unfortunately I can't write heavy about two other them as it involve the company I work for and I really can't be bothered getting messages saying I shouldn't mention them and isn't worth any disciplinaries till I've spoke to the bosses at head office. (even though I wouldn't be putting them in a bad position so I will briefly mentioned what I did)

This year I said it will be big for me as female and so far it has and in the first month it has already been massive. I've been out in the day as female but that was for something bigger, and that was going to work as female for the first time. I work in retail, but I was asked to do a few hours which should of been my day off  and that week I was presenting loads as female and also was suffering really bad with the dysphoria and how uncomfortable I was in my body, I spoke to my boss and she allowed me to come in as female if that is how I felt... So I did and went as female.

First time going to work as female 

 In Uniform Not very frilled in my uniform haha

 After work my friends came round and wanted to go for a drive, so it was fixing my make up.

I had to stop off at a service station at Sandbach.

Last week I also went round my home town as female and was the first time also within the public for the first time during the day presenting as I felt for the first time also. So some huge steps for me and the worst thing was I felt uncomfortable but not as because I was presenting female... It was how I dressed I felt extremely over dressed even though the outfit I picked was dressed down completely. I felt so over dressed and that made me uncomfortable.

My first picture out as female in my home town, when I took this I was nervous a fook.

After a long time of waiting I finally met up with my close awesome friend (BBF) Vicky 

On the same day but I had to go home on the bus, I want happy when it started to rain heavy.

This was the main reason I was not in a great mood why it was raining, these was also from River Island and cost £75 so I didn't want to get the ruined.

New projects 

Recently I thought how can I make this blog better so I've decided to invest in a better camera for my pictures which will feature in my posts shortly (the files are uncompressed and non as .nef files which means better picture with more detail... it also means that my picture files will be around 30MB comapred to a normal jpeg which can be around 3MB). The camera I bought is a Nikon D3300 which is a DSLR Camera, this means changeable lenses, better quality of pictures, I can add extras like a flash light, a gps thingy and some other cool gadgets. I've also invested in a Go Pro Hero 3 White which I'm testing out and plan to do something with it. I plan to restructure this blog later in the year also.

I also plan in getting in contact with other Trans* people and see if they will share their awesome stories, maybe even do some posts on what they wear on a daily bases when I do any fashion posts, how they do their make up as part of my little campaign on that we dress normal.

I'm also in the process of thinking to start a huge campaign which I will reveal later if I go a head with it which will involve a real petition.

The Big Announcement

After chatting with loads of new friends I've made in the Trans* community and hearing their stories of their transition and how they went on to finding out about themselves being Trans* which for their start of their journey I can relate to them and also over the last month how I felt about myself.

The other day I got figuratively slapped in the face by a huge penis which made me realise that when I'm female I'm truly happy, I don't have this unhappy stage where I want to cry because I feel unhappy in my own body. So I've thought about it and when the timing is right I will start the journey and will walk down the path to transition to female and go to my GP and get refereed to a GIC clinic (I think it's called) where I will hope I will get put on HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) but that's something I will talk about closer to the time, right now I'm going to rest, right the odd post and come to terms to whom I really am. I need to be happy and I if this means that this is the course I need to take and a possibility where I might lose my Mum then so be it.

I would like to thank everyone for your support, it has really meant the world to me. I have a number of post I want to write about but non of them yet are about me personally on my gender but items of clothing, makeup and other things.

Thank you all

Sarah

xxx

First of all I hope everyone had a great Easter weekend.

One Year On 
This Easter not only am I off for the holiday, but I'm off for the entire week (6th-12th April) this is also a massive week for me as it has been a full year since I found out that I was Bi-Gender. 9th April is the date where I also came out to a close work friend when I decide to start my journey of learning about what Bi-Gender really was. I also needed to find out more about me.

(My first ever picture April 2014)

I'm a type of person that likes to discover things and learn quickly. Sitting back in denial is something that brings on negative feelings and then comes depression which is something I don't want to suffer from. I've been in dark places mentally in the past where I wasn't the best person to be around, moody, violent, negative and to come back without the use of professional help and drugs which I refuse to consume, it takes some doing and I wasn't going to go back to that place.

Where everything started to advance in looks and attitude

As soon as I knew I came out to a good work friend and it went well, within hours and days my whole store knew, maybe not the whole truth as Chinese whispers and all but all was soon corrected and the support was just brilliant. Within a month I was out to close friends and also to my brother and father, which surprised me as I thought of them both as assholes which I'm sure they knew at the time which has now changed, and I respect them them loads even though I may not show it to them both. Also within that first month I presented female to one of my closest friends and went out for a drive so stepping out in the big wide world as female within one month.

I'm not the sort of person to like myself but I liked this

A couple of months later I presented female to my Dad for the first time which went awesome, I didn't say much when I presented female or even when I was with my friend. It's all about doing it more and more till you get more comfortable with the person you're with till you begin to be your self. Now I don't hesitate when my Dad's in the house I just do as I feel.

This was just before I presented to my Dad and another picture I liked

In June I decided to take a big step when I was working at McDonald's I decided to speck to Human Resources about being Bi-Gender which they have never heard of and soon was the talk of the department according to the operations consultant, One day I walked into where I worked before my shift he came straight over to me and started to talk to me, which I had to tell him that I was leaving as I've got a new job. Which was sad as it could of been big for McDonald's and could of started a campaign off within the company. Even at my new job now people know and there are so many people that support me.

On my birthday I felt I wanted to try something different.

In September I came out on Facebook on my male profile to get loads of supportive messages, then a couple of days later to go out close in the public in Blackpool with my closest friend, which he was very encouraging telling me to lift my head up as I spent most of it looking at the floor but I generally do that as male. The only reason I was out in Blackpool as I needed to toilet and had to use the females.

Blackpool

I think the biggest achievement happen on Christmas Eve, I got invited for drinks with everyone I used to work with at McDonald's. I decided not to fight my feelings at the time and went as female. This was the first time I've been around so many people that I know and all where supportive which was the reason why I did it as we was in a big group so no one would bother us anyway, plus I was wasted before I got to the pub due to waiting on my friend. The males that was there was awesome I didn't get any handshakes, I got hugs which was awesome, I got treated as female which will be a night I will never forget.

Christmas Eve 2014 I was wasted

With so many things done in one year which has flown by. I said at first when I found out that I was scared what would happen and now I'm petrified after all the stuff I've done, and the transformation along the way, how much in fashion has changed and I think for the better, the improvement of make-up. All this makes me think. What has this next 12 month going to be like? Will I end up staying female? If so will HRT happen? So many questions and it really bothers me as the journey continues. I've still yet to go out in the day as female, I'm still yet to wake up and have a wash to then get ready as female.

How I've changed in 12 months

Am I still scared?

Absolutely, but I would never have got this far if it wasn't for the support that I've received so to everyone that knows me.

Thank You
xx

Hey guys.

Sorry for the late post been extremely busy, on my week off I didn't really achieve anything, as I was just extremely tired and spent most of it in bed. I did present female twice but didn't go out. Last week we had a snow storm and I love snow. Where I lived snow isn't something that happens a lot and even when it does it's bad and not worth me getting ready and for the snow to stop and not stick to the ground, it happened and I went out.

(I wore this outfit but with Black Leggings with the attached skirt and a chocolate coloured long parka coat)

 As the snow stopped and a little of rain kicked in which I made me mad and I decided to head back I walk about five minutes away from my house from the park where I was. When I got in the rain stopped and I decided to get ready for bed when I looked out of the window and the snow was coming down again... Gutted

The topic for this week is mainly about being able to have a masculine appearance and a feminine appearance which is a massive struggle and I'm still learning even now and will be forever on going. This subject has pretty much popped up in most or if not every post I've done but in small amounts particularly when I did a post about shaving.

Best Of Both: Shaving
Body hair was something that apart from my chest that never really bothered me as you see girls with hairy arms which is what was on most of my earlier pictures, I took me around six months to decide to go down the route of shaving my chest being the main thing as it stopped me from wearing dress as they mainly come down to show some form of cleavage... Luckily for me none of my clothes go that far but far enough to see if you had chest hair. Being Bi-Gender at the time scared the hell out of me as I never knew enough about it and with the momentum that it was gathering from the support I never knew what was next and shaving was something that really shit me up as most of my friend would say before they knew about my female side was that I was a very masculine person from the gym, gaming, sports and the way I looked with the body hair. I was rich in the stuff not to the extreme but enough. So shaving was a big deal as I always felt for me men that shave was either homosexuals, Body Builders and guys that think there gods gift to women. (yes as a male before I found out about Bi-Gender I was childish and a pure dick)

During the summer after I found out I was Bi-Gender a couple of lads that I worked with was talking about shaving and how it's the thing now with lads as women now don't like hairy men anymore. At the time it didn't affect me but after I went out as female I noticed all the hair and felt sick, So a week later I thought if i'm going to go out more as female i'm going have to start shaving and it hit me when the two lads that I worked with that spoke about it so after thinking I went a head with it an no one at work noticed my arms with no hair. So the result ending in keeping my appearance where I have the best of both.

Best Of Both: The Body

The Body is something that I'm concentrating on next. I'm over wight by about 1 maybe 2 stone, Although I've lost body weight I would like to be lower, maybe around the 11st/10st. The place where I work has a fitness instructor and I've decided to go to her about my diet, which wasn't unhealthy but not enough, so I had to look into changing that and a change to a couple of things. The diet starts this month for me and I will make a big push to lose weight. Body mass is falling off me which I've noticed with the fact that I've had to wear a belt to stop my pants from falling down and my female clothes are becoming baggy.

Best Of Both: Voice

One thing that I'm looking into is training my voice to be more feminine but it's the biggest thing that scares me... In fact it petrifies me. It's a thing that I know I have to do but when searching on Youtube and other sites for training videos there has been no videos done by anyone that is Bi-Gender they've only been done by transgender people.

Why does this scare me?
It scares me because of they find it hard to talk in their male voice, I know they mainly talk as female full time so eventually after talking in the female voice they trained it will be hard to get back to the lower pitch they talk. I know that this won't be the case for me at the moment but I feel if I practice for so long I think I will I lose my male voice or it will sound campy and not as it is now. I don't like the sound of my voice on a mic but it's my voice, but I know it has to be done.

Updates

Since I've had my week off which I was supposed to do a couple of posts I've been very busy not having much time at all with the hours I work and other things that has popped up at the last minute. I've done a few things since my last post as it hasn't all been all work and no play. I've started a new hobby with Warhammer (Fantasy) it's a hobby I've wanted to start doing for a few years but after one of my friends has been playing it I had to. Which after buying a starter pack with loads of modals which comes with glue, paint etc I've only started to paint and within 3 weeks I don't have a modal finished and yet to play a game.hopefully in a week I will have at least one modal finished I supposed changing my mind on colour is a big factor. I go to the Games Workshop regular after work now on a Fridays now, and I have spoke to the shop manager and spoke about being Bi-Gender as on the Friday when I was there I didn't feel masculine at all and felt extremely uncomfortable in the clothes I was wearing and how I was presenting so I felt I had to tell him for the future, and as I was going to the shop the next day who knows I could of presented as female.

(Modals I'm doing not finished yet and the colour has changed)

Last Saturday  (7th Feb) I went to watch my first Ice Hockey game to watch the Sheffield Steelers with my friend that I play Warhammer with. He knows about my female side and has seen me as female when I was out on Christmas eve, but we never spoke to each other that night. I was feeling extremely feminine but I thought to myself I didn't want to do something so that was big with someone that I haven't really spoke to as my female side and didn't want it to make him feel uncomfortable. We've talked about it and I've said if I see you the next day etc would it bother you if I presented as female which he's "like yeah it's fine" which for me hasn't happened yet but will do soon. We are planning going to another game next month and hopefully I will bring my closest friend with me (Ainsley) which has been out around the public with me as female and will help with getting rid of any awkwardness that might arise at any point, I doubt it will happen but I like to be prepared.

Anyways I didn't present as female but I went in my male skin which for the whole day I felt extremely uncomfortable as I hate wearing male jeans as their to heavy and thick for me, I only wear them when I'm going to cities or going out somewhere that doesn't require a suit but needs to be more dressed up that trackies. When we got to the Motorsport Arena in Sheffield I noticed for such a manly/masculine sport it was attended by loads of females which made me feel worse in regards to how I was presenting and felt as which gender I was presenting. we sat next to the glass and at both sides and behind of me and my friend we was sat next to women. I couldn't believe how many women watched this sport and I loved it. The Steelers went on to win 4-2 against the Nottingham Panthers which was well attended. I'm planning on going to watch the Steelers again on the 7th March against Belfast hopefully I will have Ainsley with me and if it triggers I shall be presenting female.

(Snakes Pass Pennines Lancashire and Yorkshire)

I found that picture on my phone which was while we was on a road called Snakes Pass. Its a mountain pass that gives you great views for miles around and a view of Manchester on a clear day also. It's the first time I've been there normally if I'm going to Yorkshire it's normally the motorway.

Me just before I wrote this post... Hi :)

Hey all

It has been a while since I posted a something about a particular topic and this week I want to talk about what it must be like living with someone that has to see the changes that people are Bi-Gender and I can imaging people that are Transgender also.

Being Bi-gender isn't easy and same goes for transgender but even though I have spoken to people and looked through forums and other peoples blogs I've never seen anything about who they live with, nor do I see many thank the people that they live with also. (I'm mainly on about the people that accept them or has no choice but has to put up living with them)

It must be hard or weird for my Dad as I don't general present female much, it works out works out like 3/4 time a month which really is nothing. I won't let anyone see me when I feel that my gender has switched completely and I will be a total bitch if anyone decides to walk into my room when I'm getting ready. I will never tell anyone that I'm going to get ready as female mainly as I generally just start to get ready without thinking about it, but I've noticed that it will happen when my Dad has nipped out or fast asleep either on the couch or in bed, so I don't get disturbed . I will generally give hints during the day if I feel conflicted which my Dad never gets. The biggest hint is that I always want to do things early as possible mainly in the mornings so I can get sorted then get ready and spend the rest of the day as female if the switch happens.

One thing that I had on my mind was how would it affect him seeing me before he goes to sleep or when he nips out then the next time he sees me it's coming out of my bedroom door with longer blonde hair, boobs, and female clothing all without warning. I must have some effect on his mind even if its for one minute. Going out just for 10 mins or so having a nap on the couch seeing me as his son then coming back and 20/30 mins after hes back  or woken up then seeing me as his daughter. It must have some effect.

The big thing is he acts all fine about it, it might not bother him but my point of this post is what about the other people that are Bi-Gender/Transgender that live with someone. How do they feel? (you could live with a friend) I spent most of my Christmas at my friends on boxing day I went shopping with him, got back to his went up stairs to his gaming room went to the loo and 40 mins later I came back to his room as female. It didn't look like it bothered him mainly as he has gotten used to it but it was at his house. He probably knew as he knew I took my stuff just in case and I told him that it could happen and he could of guess that I was getting ready as female, but there is something called a poker face. It makes me wounder do we really appreciate the people that we live with as it mustn't be easy for them seeing there love one/friend go into the loo or not seeing them for a period of time hiding away and then watching them walk through a door as the opposite gender.

So this post goes out to the people that has to cope living with use.

Thank you

Updates and stuff


This Update is for 2015 New Year, New Me.

After I've spoken to a few friends about the clothes I wear and the comments made about them and my body I've decided to add a dress, leggings/tights. I've been told on a few occasions that I have really good legs and I should try the the dress and legging etc so I've started to. On boxing day it was the first time I wore a dress (hoodie dress), leggings, leatherette shorts and knee high boots. It was only since I did the post on footwear did a few of my friends actually say about my legs, as I've always worn jeans when I've been out.

The hoodie dress is extremely comfy and I wore with leggings and my knee boots that I got from New Look. It was snowing also so I had to go out, when cars/people went past no one looked at me any different.. well not what I noticed.

I also managed to get my hands on the boots similar to what I wanted from Schuh/River Island but I had to order them from China which came in 2 weeks and less than the delivery expected time. So I decided stuff it lets wear them when I went to McDonald's with my Dad.

I didn't get any pictures before I went to McD's,

 but this is pretty much what I wore just with legging instead.

Last Sunday 11th Jan was the first time presenting as female that I've been out with my Dad even it was a 10-15 minute drive to my local McDonald's, I did wear the boots throughout the day and I wasn't changing them when I went to McDonald's. I didn't go in and it was due to my Dad wanted to go inside to order rather than the drive thru, I was going to go in as I noticed a few people that saw me on Christmas Eve that was working when I look through the window. One thing stopped me and that was the local kids that have been plaguing the store and cause trouble, with it being my first time out with my Dad I didn't want to ruin it by going in and them finding out and trouble that it could caused so I stopped the car.

I can tell why this design has been copied and more than one clothes chain stocks this design. Also it has got fashion blogger going wild over them to and I can see why, there extremely comfy and I know I could walk in them all day, you can't tell that there's much of a heel because of the way the platform of the boot is designed and the fabric on your leg is super soft... Well for mine it is and mine isn't suede, for me it's like wearing a slipper haha. The boots can also be worn with practically anything, I teamed my boots with a tartan dress, legging which and wore a long coat with faux fur round the sleeves and the hood. I didn't realize the coat was chocolate colour as I'm sure the shop said it was black but meh I like it and it's a start of my collection of winter coats.

The week of 12th-18th Jan I few things has happened not relating to me being female but I will be blogging about. Also from tomorrow 19th Jan, I'm officially off work for a week and I will use it to write a few posts and hopefully some new things will happen, such as waking up and getting dressed as female for the first time rather than in the afternoon, going out on my own as female, who knows what could happen.

Hey all

This week big topic for me is shaving.

All girls do it, and now it seems more men are taking to the razor, waxing etc to remove body hair. I will be writing this post from both my male and female sides. I was supposed to have wrote this during the week but due to the awkward hours my male side works it's to late to write a post, we can only plan on future topics. This is yet another topic that will be split into parts as it's a new ending story and changes will happen the more it goes on.

So here goes another personal topic and experience that I and many other people go through.

Before My Skin Went Under The Razor
As my male side from the first moment I found out that I was Bi-Gender I said when asked "would I ever shave?" At that time I strongly believed that it would be a step to far and would end up emasculating my masculinity. I would only go as far as trim over grown body hair, but from this summer I heard a few male lads that shave their bodies and when I went on my brothers stag do I got a massive impression that a couple of the lads shave. Can't say I'm sure on that one I didn't ask as really just think about it on a stag do, "hey man do you shave" like come on how camp and bad of a question would that be? Awkwarrrrrrddddd.


But still hearing that many males shave that live fairly normal lives kind of made me relax, and let my guard down.

As for my female side shaving was never important at the time, as I had many other things going on and I was still constructing a basic image with clothing and make-up etc, I suppose that is a never ending thing but I feel that everyone has that style they follow and use guidelines etc. A big thing that never made me think about shaving was I've seen many girls with hairy arms, not really hairy but visible to the naked eye and easily seen on photos so it never bothered me or even made me aware.

Hair on arm/hand

Shaving only hit me a few days after I was out in Blackpool within the public presented as female did my body hair become a problem. For some reason I was thinking about how awesome my time presented as the gender I felt with no one causing trouble etc.

I know I've used this image a few times but it just goes with so many posts at the moment.

The first time I shaved my body I didn't even think about it. I just went for a normal facial and didn't intend on presenting female but for some reason I accidentally just ended up shaving my hairs on my hand off... Then my arm hair soon went. (That's where my female side triggered) One hour later it came to me having a shower, just before that I ended up getting the clippers out and shaving the extreme amount of hair away from my legs. I then got in the shower and shaved my legs.

Hair on arm/hand

I didn't have the best razors and I think I went through 6 razors when I did my arms, legs and chest etc. I used Shaving creme and I had some skin conditioner by Nivea at the time of doing this.

The Aftermath Thoughts And Feelings From Then To Now 

A I was shaving I had a thought "what should I wear?" It ended up being a black dress without any leggings or jeans, but then the temperature dropped (In my flat the temperature can change quickly without being in the shower or bath) As I was getting ready I ended up catching my skin on my leg and was hit with the feeling of total smooth skin. I couldn't believe how smooth my skin was, it was like the hair kept my skin free from spots or rashes, I now look back at some of my photos and think "why didn't I shave sooner?" It makes me feel so uneasy looking at the older photos where I see body hair. My hair was like a second skin. I never knew how smooth my skin was.

With my flat that I live in starting to get cold and with no body hair to help me keep that little bit warm I needed something to help but without having to wear leggings or jeans. (heating was turned on but would take an hour to start to heat up) I do look at fashion mags and in at the moment is my favorite footwear and really the only type of footwear I have which are boots. I only ever tell people about my ankle boots, and my knees, but the ones I wore on this occasion was something I would never go out the in and will just wear them when its cold and only with me in the house and that is my over-the-knee boots. I know the way I describe them might have some people thinking I keep them for some form of sexual activity but I don't. I rarely wear them it's just when it gets cold in the flat at night mainly. I hate UGG boots or any type that resemble them, so they're out of the question. These for me was the best option to try with my skin being now exposed without hair.

In my flat it doesn't matter what mode i'm in, if I know I have nothing planned I will wear shorts and a tee-shirt or a light material top. I don't really like the picture above main reason is due to my camera I used to use being broken and I had to use the surface for the pictures. I don't care how bad I looked or how slutty it seemed, I never went out and stayed in and those boots kept me warm.  I think suede boots would of been better but I don't have any... Yet.

One thing I nearly forgot to mention is how good the boots felt whist wearing them. It made me think on how much feeling you lose when your body is covered in hairs. Another thing about shaving was it revealed how dark my hair was and made me see how much of a milk bottle my skin is. Maybe next year the sun beds might be on the cards, not like obsessive as you can get hold of skin hormones that will give you a tan. I only know this as I saw them in Holland and Barrett's whilst shopping for protein and muti-vitamins.

A few days after shaving mainly my legs it started to mess up my skin with rashes and spots, I have no idea why this was as I shaved with the grain on my skin and not against plus I did moisturize my skin daily. I can only think this was down to using clippers first on my skin as it did produce loads of scratches and would of damaged my skin before taking a razor and shaving which after reading many forums it drys your skin anyways. I think the razors was a factor also as they was cheap crappy ones that have no moisturizing applications on them. I think my skin needs to get used to shaving as well. Not sure it that true but my skin at the time looked a mess, now isn't to bad, as I use "Wilkinson Sword Xtreme 3 Beauty" which comes with 3 blades in stead of the 2 I've been using, they also come with some sort of moisturizing application on it, the blade is more flexible and pivots at a 30 degree angle... And it still cuts the shit out of my leg and I think even more than the crappy 2 blades with no moisturizing blades I used to use. Black Friday is around the corner which Cyber Monday will follow so I hope the price of the better Razors will drop massively and will also look into better skin care. I think that working in a dusty warehouse doesn't help for my arms no matter how often I wash my arms and shower.

Shaving isn't just about my legs. It opens more opportunities to show skin. Showing skin for me is legs and tops like in the photo above and more arms. No showing of the belly from me sorry to get many hopes up. Joking, even if I had a flat stomach I wouldn't show. (maybe next year I will work getting more in shape, but one step at a time)  

Shaving for my male side has changed mainly the way of image. Only one person has asked about me shaving and that was by another male. I work with a few females that aren't afraid to voice their options and will ask questions so we done to them for noticing... Not. Even as male I have changed on how I see body hair and now really don't like it. I've looked a few times at my skin whether its my body or legs etc and thought how disgusting. I've seen on a few forums how people let shaving take up so much time and time is not what I have a lot of. I tend to spend around 30 minutes shaving from facial to the whole body, probably the reason why I end up with loads of cuts.

I highly doubt I will ever go back to being hairy ever again. In the past I've had my legs waxed for charity and I really don't know why most men cry like a bitch as I really don't think it hurts. I remember at one charity event there was these two lads one I knew and they was screaming like they was going to die it was so funny then I got roped into it and I have witnesses, people with their phone recording me thinking I would scream when I only turned round to watch the rugby league internationals on TV (think it was England vs Australia at Leigh Sports Village stadium where England thrashed them) until they was finished with my leg haha this is all true by the way.

Not thought of my next topic but I did get a text off a courier company called DPD. The only thing I'm expecting is my new hair, which I have had made custom that took 12 days to make and is real human hair, so I can dye it and do other things that with synthetic hair you couldn't. I can straighten my synthetic hair that I have now but up to 120 degrees Celsius.