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This week’s post is about identity and image.

Identity
Identity can be used for many things from identifying who a person is, yourself and even an object etc. In my case I’m talking about how you identify... well you. Gender is also how you identify yourself.

Gender Identity
This is for me complicated as it brings so many things and many words to describe how people identify themselves.

Transgender – This is the most common and many documentaries have been made about people that are transgender, the basic is someone that is born as male or female and does not identify as that gender role, and will mostly transition to the opposite gender so the body will match the gender they see themselves and feel. Please note: Not every transgender person will have the full SRS (Sexual reassignment surgery) and that is just keeping simple.

Bi-Gender – A person who fluctuates between men and women genders-based behaviours and identities. Which will identify as both genders (sometimes as a third gender Androgynous) Bi-Gender is under the Transgender Umbrella.

Genderfluid - Gender Fluid is a gender identity best described as a dynamic mix of boy and girl. A person who is Gender Fluid may always feel like a mix of the two traditional genders, but may feel more boy some days, and more girl other days. Being Gender Fluid has nothing to do with which set of genitalia one has, nor their sexual orientation.
There are more but again I like to keep things simple because it will make many peoples brain boil and then die… Okay not like that but it keep confusion down.

Bi-Gender

Bi-Gender is hard for me to understand even though I’m Bi-Gender myself. The reason for this is because the people I've spoken to are different. Some have gone on to discover that they are transgender and have gone on to live as the opposite gender. sexuality changes with some people that are Bi-Gender but not all, so for me it won’t change I will always be attracted to women no matter what gender I present. Some people’s personality will change when they’re presenting as the opposite gender again for me it doesn't… I think as I've never been out that many times as female, I tend to drink more alcohol as female though. There are many things with people who are Bi-Gender that can change but for most people that I've spoken to it’s mainly appearance and mannerisms.

Image
When I realised that I was Bi-Gender and decided that I wanted to embrace it rather than fight it and become miserable and crazy as it started to take me… Like really. It started to send me out my mind and I didn't want to go to a place mentally where I was a few years ago. Anyway when you start out you have nothing and it takes ages to get the image you see yourself, from makeup and clothes.
I suppose it’s down to influences also which depends on your appearance. For me it started out as a rocker style girl. I listened to heavier metal, more brutal music. I also had the leather jackets the makeup was quite dark, and clothes was dark and band influenced, plus the people I was speaking to at that at the beginning was gothic so I suppose they had a massive influence on me.
As my journey continued I started to take trips to Manchester and Liverpool for inspiration as the gothic look just wasn't working for me. I started to take mental notes at what other women was wearing and when I got home I would start browsing online stores which I soon started to build a collection of what clothes I wanted… They all sold out by the time I wanted to buy them :’(
I had to then think about alternative styles to the clothes that I wanted in case they would sell out or in my case if they didn't have it in my size. So that is where the Primania (Primark’s website), Twitter came in.

Primania

Primania is a section on Primark’s website where people (around Europe mainly) post pictures of what they were wearing and bought from Primark. Its awesome for finding inspiration for outfits, not only do people post their outfit but sometimes they will post other items that they’re wearing from other stores with prices also. One of the best features of this part is it will ask you “Where did you wear this?” People that have submitted their picture will normally say where they was.  Most are like for dinner with friends or at university etc, but you do get a good few people that are fashion students or love fashion and have blogs just on fashion and will post a link to their blogs, so this is a great way to look into fashion.
With other Items Listed

Twitter
Shops and blogs

Yes twitter is awesome for finding fashion tips, cloth shops, peoples fashion blogs, sales that aren't advertised etc. How did I find this out? By searching by search one single item of clothing. I was looking for styles for boots which I put in the search bar on Twitter, and you get the picture section and you can see people posting picture from a night out etc and you can see what they was wearing with the boots. As long as they mention it (doesn’t have to be a hashtag) you will find them. Also Shops will post picture of that item of clothing also, which is where I found my suede over the knee boots because Pink Boutique posted. You will get Fashion websites also posting “what to wear with…” or “How to wear…” So for me I would see “What to wear with boots” or How to wear boots” etc and the websites will list the dresses, pants and skirts for example.
I will warn you there are pros and cons to it and you will have access to everything doing this method on Twitter, but when I say you have access to everything on Twitter I mean it. Depending on what you put in the search bar will depend on the results and what people you get. Boots which is what I started to put in and research on what to wear with it and what styles there. Unfortunately people see boots as a fetish and you will get women that do sex type web chats for desperate pervy men and will advertise what they’re wearing, some will just post links to the websites, some post pictures… Might work for you if you want to sex it up for your partner I suppose haha, but my point is whatever you search be prepared.

River Island (what I’m Wearing)
River Island have started doing something similar to Primark’s Primania but is more involved on social media using Twitter and Instagram, where you put #WHATIMWEARINGRI
I don’t think it’s as good as Primania but it’s a start. I think River Island’s strong part is when you’re on their site and on an item on the right side it has a section which says “looks good with” and will put other items of clothing that will go with the item you’re looking at.

Apps

Fashionfreax app

If you look hard enough you can find great apps that are out there for fashion. When I’m out and about as I have an IPhone I use an app called “Fashionfreax” It’s like Primania but a social network related to cloths. Add people, comment on people’s outfits, makeup and accessories and you can also post outfits of your own as well.


Fashionfreax app clothes listing

Other places to look (what I’ve not used but know about)
Pinterest – I’ve never really used this but you can post or see what people have pined what styles they like and doesn’t have to do with fashion.
https://uk.pinterest.com/
Bloglovin - Follow your favourite blogs with Bloglovin. Discover what's best in Fashion, Beauty, Lifestyle & more. Sign up or login today & never miss a single post!
https://www.bloglovin.com/
Ebay – If you search for an item of clothing some users put together a portfolio of what they think looks good/or is good. It will have links to the product you want also if you like it or want to more.

Physical Image


Image isn't just about clothes, it is also about the shape of your body, and facial features. For me as I’m biologically a male so I don’t have female characteristics such as breasts being the big thing. At first I got a well-padded bra it worked for a short while but it didn't make me feel like the women I saw in my head, so I had to buy breast foams which mine for all my pictures are A cups. At the starting stage I was thinking start small and lay the foundations of how I looked, not going to big on everything, not spending loads of money and thinking why did I buy them. Starting out trying to build your image. I supposes how you look from you body to makeup and clothing its down to trial and error. After taking pictures of how I looked I soon saw that my breast foams wasn't suiting my frame and needed to go bigger, which I have and now have C cups. The journey is never ending and I'm still looking into altering many things and I've noticed it changes with the seasons and will forever be an ongoing process.



If there is one is one thing about being different to other people whether its being homosexual, Transgender, Bi-Gender, or dressing towards a culture (Goth, Emo etc) and many more you will have that one person at least that will either take a joke to far or really make life hard for you to benefit themselves.


Luckily for me I have had so much support it's been amazing and made me so confident and has really made me what I am today, but now I have bumped into problems, it's surrounding this one individual. He calls me names, he talks out aloud to people that didn't even know, he really does go to town on me. Personally I don't see him as a bully, just an idiot that thinks it's funny and doesn't understand the concept of what Bi-Gender is... Probably never will.

It's been going on for a month now, I don't find it funny but I don't find it where it upsets me, I don't let him get the best of me. It pisses me off but that is the hard part, it makes me think "Boy if I could only finish at 17:30 and knock him out in the car park" or just go round to where he goes on a night out and get him there. As awesome as it would be to get my own back it isn't the answer. Accepting your different means that you have to be strong on the inside. The thing is I know that I have nothing bad to feel about as I know he has a daughter and I know he takes drugs (I remember him telling me in August/September). I don't know how much he sees his daughter but I know he aint worth it, as I'm sure his daughter will end up disowning him when she comes of age if he carries on, that is if he hasn't over dosed himself by then.

Some of the names I get called or phrases  that are used are;

"Lady Boy"
"Go get a frock on"
"No, you can't suck my Dick"
"Go Suck dick"
"Stop looking at my ass" (which I don't nothing to see)
"Stop touching me" (why the hell would I do such a thing)

He also likes to sing a song which is really only one line which no one laughs at mainly as he can't finish it.

"He wears a frock he loves the cock Nick,Nick"

Mostly are aimed at me liking other males which I know i'm not. Even when I present female, I will always go for females.
It generally makes me laugh, it really does. Mainly as he really is a fucking idiot. he's lazy, a prick and he doesn't think his life is worse than mine. I generally don't talk to him unless I need to. It's him that starts something from nothing. I know many people would get upset or pissed off but that's not how I work. If I can't handle someone that says a load of bull then how and I going to handle when someone does worse? I know it will happen at some point.

Name calling doesn't hurt specially when it's from someone you don't care about. If he dies tomorrow I'm not going to give a fuck, if he comes in saying he can't see his kid (again i'm not sure if he can or not but if) I will generally not show any compassion. Why would you? He went round telling people that I didn't tell and made up a load of bull. Yes you can lash out but the biggest question is? Is it worth your job? No its not. I spend around 5-6 hours and I don't see him all the time, plus their is a chance I won't be in the same area for my time there.

The thing that does my head in is how inaccurate everything he uses are, or when he tells other people that I never told. 99% of the time when hes on his own he says nothing, So is getting worked up worth it? Not really when I'm taller and around 4 stone heavier and still faster that what he is.


I only see this as a positive as everything he says is wrong anyway and I know that my life is so much better than his. I know that Karma will happen and will affect him more than it will with me. I know I have so many people that are with me than against me. If you're transgender, Bi-Gender, Homosexual, Emo, Goth etc it doesn't mean you have to take the shit people give you. It's about how you react to people. You go to work to work, not really to make friends. If you do good, a nice bonus.

My advice to you if your going through the same or similar is don't let people bring you down especially if you have great support and following like I have. Look to the future, so if you just have to work with them why let it bother you?
Bullying is what you think of the situation really. For me its someone that's trying to look cool in front of people. When he has been on his own he normally talks to me about football. (NFL and soccer) so for me it doesn't really get to me so let him have his cheap laughs as I know his problem outside of work will be worse than mine. One day he will piss the wrong person off and they will swing for him.

If you feel that you're getting bullied their are many ways to deal with it if you want to stop.


  • Talk to that person. (They might not know they're hurting or offending you)
  • Talk to the next in command. (sometimes it better as they're not snotty and can put things in better perspective for that person that has offended/upset you)
  • Talk to HR. (HR - Human Resources are a great way to settle most issues and have all the information to help you and help put a stop to bullying, but not all HR departments are great)
  • Talk to the higher ups or even owners depending on what type of business you work in. (If you talk to your bosses and they know about your situation than it's great way to sort any issue out as they will act)
  • If all else fails there are many methods that can be helped outside of the work place, such as legal action, or in the UK we have a service called Acas.

Acas are great to use. They give free advice for problems in the workplace. This service can be used for employees and employers, They offer other services at a price to business to help them with the HR side of things. Acas has government sponsor so you are guaranteed not go get rubbish only the impartial information that you need for the issue that you have. They will give you the rights that you have as an employer or employee and will even give you links to the right places. They will help you for all business HR related questions not just bullying.

Contact details
Number: 0300 123 1100 (UK)
Hours: (8am-8pm Monday to Friday and 9am-1pm Saturday)

I Don't think there's an e-mail but even if there was I wouldn't use it. I would advise you speak to them so you know how they sound on the phone and they can always e-mail you the information you need. You can always write notes down using pen and paper or use notepad, word etc. These for me are a last resort but you can also compare notes from what your HR or bosses say to what Acas say. Acas will tell you what is law.